work and more work..

of late, work is piling up.. suddenly, a lot of things are thrown at me and i don't know if that is on purpose..

 

i have been feeling a bit depressed.. not really due to work pressures, but rather outside of work.. or rather, what is lack of outside of work..

 

things are moving to unfamiliar territories, and in some way i am a bit frightened.. work is evolving into something that involves a lot of things that i am trying to cope..

 

then there is this other thing.. something i put effort into but i feel slipping away from me.. i think this bothers me the most, and it effects my performance.. i feel moody each day if i go without.. and i don't know if i'll be able to snap out of it.. i know it is not a good thing to try to hold on, but i guess that is beyond what i can control.. i do turn to prayer sometimes, but i don't know if these are the things prayers can sort out..

 

i think generally it is life, on how it suddenly gives you that pressure that you try to ignore.. life sneaking up on you.. been feeling like this for a while and written countless times about it..

 

just taking a break from work to jot down some sudden feelings.. just tired out, i guess..

 

i miss.. really miss..