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人生好奇怪。 。時好時壞，有起有落。 。很難去猜它的意義。 。

最近，工作上壓力變大。 。一進辦公室就開始緊張。 。那新上任的上司就把我搞的透不過氣來。 。組管也被他搞得騰騰轉。 。所以，也能在這樣的壓力中度過。 。

在私生活中，愛情。 。空白。 。我的他，你在哪裡？ ？

家裡的部分，那個不知道要講啥。 。也不太想跟父母多講，因為怕他們會逼我結婚。 。真的不想面對那個。 。

事業，看不清楚。 。

這種沒方向的感覺不好受。 。

要為知己找那個出路。 。

i don't..

i don't ask because i don't want to intrude on your privacy.. i do care and i do want to know how things are.. but since you are not forthcoming about your situation, i just don't want to appear too busybody..

i don't say encouraging things because i don't know what to say.. sometimes i think humor is the best way to tell you that i do care, but i don't know if you feel that way too.. behind the humor is my true intention.. that i actually want to tell you that if you need me, i am there..

i don't want to appear i care so i act nonchalant.. actually i don't know what is the definition of our relationship.. that is why i act all goofy.. perhaps i am reading too much into something that is not..

i don't feel grounded because i became dependent.. and when things change, i went out of sorts..

i don't know what is going on..
i don't feel fine..
i don't want to deal with this..
i don't.. just i don't..

work and more work..

of late, work is piling up.. suddenly, a lot of things are thrown at me and i don't know if that is on purpose..

 

i have been feeling a bit depressed.. not really due to work pressures, but rather outside of work.. or rather, what is lack of outside of work..

 

things are moving to unfamiliar territories, and in some way i am a bit frightened.. work is evolving into something that involves a lot of things that i am trying to cope..

 

then there is this other thing.. something i put effort into but i feel slipping away from me.. i think this bothers me the most, and it effects my performance.. i feel moody each day if i go without.. and i don't know if i'll be able to snap out of it.. i know it is not a good thing to try to hold on, but i guess that is beyond what i can control.. i do turn to prayer sometimes, but i don't know if these are the things prayers can sort out..

 

i think generally it is life, on how it suddenly gives you that pressure that you try to ignore.. life sneaking up on you.. been feeling like this for a while and written countless times about it..

 

just taking a break from work to jot down some sudden feelings.. just tired out, i guess..

 

i miss.. really miss..