stagnating..

feeling that everyone is moving on except me.. sometimes a bit envious of the people around me and that they could just move on so easily.. and that most time i am just stuck here, stagnating and not able to find that step to take..

i guess i believe in letting things be.. in time, everything will fall into place.. but as time passed by, worry sets in.. and when you just worry and think too much sometimes that it is preventing you from living out what you intended..

with passage of time, more responsibilities will come by.. it is not easy to maneuver through more complexity.. as you try to stay positive, the more you feel that there is more to weigh you down..

sometimes you do not know that you have crossed that line of co-dependence, or maybe you do not know that you have become more of a burden than of anything.. that putting all your outreach on just that person is not a healthy thing.. and it will make you feel dependent.. unable to severe that supposed link that you thought have been built.. and in the end feels separated..

i choose to believe my day will arrive.. but it is a tiring and most times, depressing wait.. but i guess i'll trudge along..

are you satisfied..

i was reading a post made by frinsky.. about whether we are satisfied with the current being.. and after processing it for a few days, i thought i would give my two cents..

i am satisfied for the most part.. but some parts i guess i am still looking for that reason to be satisfied.. a person, irrespective of his orientation, pursue different goals in life.. some goals are met easier than others.. and thus my argument for being satisfied with some things in life..

there are other things.. things that i probably have to work harder to achieve.. i am OK with the current status quo, but i do want that part of my life to not be an empty page..

so, satisfied in a way but looking for a 100% satisfaction..